Dear ,Terrance ( my lost love&bestfriend )

I dont kno if u will ever c this but i cant keep this inside of my heart :

I dont kno wat happen to us ,  but it really killed me when u ended our friendship and wat we had . It killed me when u told me that u would never love me the way i love u ! u werent just somebody i loved and wanted to be wit , u were my best friend !!  People say that i will get over and tell me i shouldnt get so upset and that i shouldnt drop tears over u , But c they dont understand u meant so much to me , i cant just get over it , i really love u , u were my heart ! I cant just say o well fuck him ! its not that easy , its hard to get over someone u love to the core , its hard to stop thinkin about that someone u had plans to be wit in the future ,my eyes filled wit so many tears knowin that i will never hear u say u love me ,and knowin that i will never hear yo voice agian , and the biggest of them all knowin that i will never hav that future wit  u or my bestfriend !   I remember tellin u that i would  love u no matter wat happens even if u decide to go wit another girl  that i would still love u the same . and i still do , my love hasnt change  for u . Iam still here if u need me ! To be honest i tried to make myself hate u so the pain in my heart would go away, but i couldnt . i sit and wonder if u think about how this would effected me and if u even cared ?   I never thought i would lose u . idk what i did to lose u .  i kno u hav a girl and u dont look at me the same anymore =/ but i dont want our friendship to end ! just to let u kno iam always here for u no matter wat  T and  i will alway love u <3