THA GOOD TIMES LOL (MISSIN THIS)

MY BEST FRIENDS CONNIE & TERRANCE 

Nicki Minaj - Right Thru Me

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Shad Moss (Scene from "The Who Is Shad Moss" Project Movie)

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GOOD THING PT 2

I said before that good things come 2 those who wait so i waited n let a good thing pass me maybe u had 2 pass me to c that u left something GREAT

PLAYING BACK

playin back wat happen that day when we were in that room and how it felt to b so close to u .how good it felt to hold u and not let go

WONDER Y

They wonder y i act the way i do some say i hav a split personality . Yea i admit i do i cant hold back how i feel So wat if am an emotional person

NOT RIGHT NOW

I dont want to b in a relationship right now i cant picture it happenin i dont c myself wit bein wit anybody anymore iam goin solo for the moment

STOPPIN IT BEFORE IT TO LATE

Stoppin it now when u told me u miss me my heart jump n then stop all i could think about is u wantin me back n us bein together then remember its over

A HINT

Give me something that show u still care and want me around tell me something that shows u still hav love for me give me some type of sign !

MISSIN YA

Idk wat it is but i really miss more then ever i sit back and think wat happen all i want to do is feel your arms around me and u not lettin go

TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY

mornin started off great Usually i would listen 2 the same sad n depressin songs on my ipod But this mornin i listened 2some happy bestfriend music

YOUR NAME IN MY INBOX

Shocked when i seen yo name in my inbox lol u textin me made my day When i text u, u text right back For some reason u textin me makes my day go GREAT

THAT DAY

 The day i stop thinkin about u .the day i can say your name witout cryin .the day i can look at your pics and vids and not break down . The day i can wake up and smile cuz your not the first thing i thought about when i woke up . The day i go to sleep and not think about u before i close my eyes . The day i can look u in your eyes and smile witout tears fallin . The day i can hug u and let go witout regreting it .the day i c u wit her and not clasp like someone stab me in my heart . The day i can listenin to a song witout thinkin about u. The day i can just smile when come to my mind . The day i can think about the good times and smile and laugh. The day i stop sayin "y did u stop lovin me and wat happen" the day i can say i only love u has friend .

"THEY SAY"

 "They say nice guys finish last" so does that mean nice girls finish last to ? Cuz iam the sweetest girl ever and i would ride or die for the people i love and care for . But when it comes down to i realize that bein the sweetest girl doesnt work cuz u still get hurt and they say treat others like u would want to b treated . So i treat people right but they treated me wrong . I startin thinkin wats the point of treatm someone wit respect when u kno there goin to treat u like shit

NOV 1 2010

These past to months hav been hell from losin my bestie/lost love to bull shit .so ! Startin NOV 1 2010 i will let go all the drama and pain in my heart. I want to live my life happy .Iam makin a promise to myself and sayin "FUCK ALL THE BULLSHIT" ,"DUECES TO THE USELESS","HA I DONT GIVE A FUCK"

yea i kno

My past blog pots hav been about my heart break over my ex love/bestie  who never became mine ! writin was the only way for me to express myself about wat happen and how i feel and i really dont kno wat happen , cuz me and him NEVER  even talked about it ,  cant really move on but iam tryin it feels like iam in a place where i cant b found and iam alone wit just fog around me ......... searching the answer and him =/

THINGS WILL GET EASIER

Chris Brown - Yeah 3x

Still not over it

saw u yesterday my heart filled wit so much joy then i realize that u werent there to c me or b wit me u were wit her my broke into thousand pieces i pretend like it didnt bother me but Really it killed me inside in so many ways i wanted to hug u so bad ! I wanted to feel u pull me close to u and not let go . I thought i was done wit my feels for u then realize that i was just lieing to myself . I dont think i will ever get over it .

JUST STOP

 I DONT CARE ABOUT U .MOVE ON DONT WASTE YOUR TIME. I NEVER WILL LOVE U. I DONT WANT U . YOUR NOT THE ONE FOR ME . I DONT LOVE U . I DONT HAV FEELINGS FOR U . SHE'S WAT I NEED IN MY LIFE NOT U . >WORDS FROM A KILLER<

YESSSS!!!! WILLOW WHIP YO HAIR GIRL !!!!!!!!!!!

Last breath:

 took that last breath when u said "she the type of girl i need in my life and i wasnt"u ripped my heart out like a scene in horror a movie i clasp to the ground my body felt like there was no life inside of me . I felt like i took my last breath and die wit tears in my eyes i ask god y and please dont let this be . Just wake me from this nightmare .

That drive :

 i want to take that drive wit the sky light wit just me and the open road wit my music i want to clear my mind and look up at the sky and think about my life from the beginning to now and wonder how my future will b.and not worry about life . I want that drive to take all the stress that i hav away. I want that drive to that never ending road to no where . I want to go on that drive that never ends . I want to get away from everybody and not care about wats goin on . Takin that drive will bring me back to the point in life were i realize i can only care for myself and nonething else . I want to take that drive to the never endin road cuz i know i can sit back wit the sky light and not worry about anything and hav my music surroundin me .takin that drive to no where

Dear ,Terrance ( my lost love&bestfriend )

I dont kno if u will ever c this but i cant keep this inside of my heart :

I dont kno wat happen to us ,  but it really killed me when u ended our friendship and wat we had . It killed me when u told me that u would never love me the way i love u ! u werent just somebody i loved and wanted to be wit , u were my best friend !!  People say that i will get over and tell me i shouldnt get so upset and that i shouldnt drop tears over u , But c they dont understand u meant so much to me , i cant just get over it , i really love u , u were my heart ! I cant just say o well fuck him ! its not that easy , its hard to get over someone u love to the core , its hard to stop thinkin about that someone u had plans to be wit in the future ,my eyes filled wit so many tears knowin that i will never hear u say u love me ,and knowin that i will never hear yo voice agian , and the biggest of them all knowin that i will never hav that future wit  u or my bestfriend !   I remember tellin u that i would  love u no matter wat happens even if u decide to go wit another girl  that i would still love u the same . and i still do , my love hasnt change  for u . Iam still here if u need me ! To be honest i tried to make myself hate u so the pain in my heart would go away, but i couldnt . i sit and wonder if u think about how this would effected me and if u even cared ?   I never thought i would lose u . idk what i did to lose u .  i kno u hav a girl and u dont look at me the same anymore =/ but i dont want our friendship to end ! just to let u kno iam always here for u no matter wat  T and  i will alway love u <3

"ITS GOIN TO GET BETTER"

It can only get better from now on , I will no longer think or act wit an negative mind or heart !  I cant really love the ones that hurt me , But i can love the ones that love and bring me happiness , Iam  done wit the drama , and done wit the people that bring drama towards my way , so for now on  when i see drama comin towards my way iam stepping to the side and lettin it pass me . Iam not waitin to Jan1 2011 to start my life over iam starting now this very sec ! I hav a new look on life ! There no point in stressin it just  makes things worst ! I want so much for myself i cant let anyone or anything stop me from being happy ! Things are goin to get better !!

T.I. Feat. Chris Brown - Get Back Up (New Song 2010)

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Happy Sweetest Day (to myself )

Well its another  Sweetest Day alone , it really doesnt bother me that i dont hav a sweetie , =) .soooooooooooo HAPPY SWEETEST DAY TO MYSELF !! <3 <3 <3

D.2.T.B ( DUECES 2 THE BESTIE)

I want to say goodbye for good .the pain i hav in my heart is gettin out of control i cant take it anymore . Wakin up to nonething is heartbreakin . Goin to sleep to silent is death u turn your back witout thinkin twice .now its my turn to turn my back on u and not look back . Its time to cut the strings i hav attach to u .

No Title Needed

If u really knew wat i felt on the inside:
 thinkin back i always said love is not suppose to hurt but really real love does . love is a strong that people throw around . I been slap wit that trust word alot and been stab wit that wit that love word to . People think its hard to to find love but that people throw around . I been slap wit that trust word alot and been stab wit that wit that love word to . People think its hard to to find love but to me its hard to stop lovin someone that doesnt love u . Its hard to let go someone u love and pretend that it never happen . The pain of love kills people .

UPDATES AND UPGRADES COMIN SOON!!!!!

Ciara - Gimme Dat

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I can forgive u but i can never forget the pain u left in my heart

ICE CUBE (OMG, DOUGHBOY) REV RUN (DIGGY , JOJO)

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I had a real "All Smiles" day !!

Today was a real good day !!!

Todays events

• BSU (BLACK STUDENT UNION ) turn out GREAT !!!!! the real talk  discussion was GREAT  our topic was about "Facebook V.S Face 2 Face" 
• Hangin wit my sis and real friends !!! had a great time !!! 

In the end ...............

I try to block u out my mind , and find distractions so i wont think about u but i cant help it cuz in the end iam always thinkin about u , i try so hard to make myself made at u , but then i turn right back around and fall  in love ! its hard to turn my back on u ! iam happy that i didnt hav that special moment wit u but then i wish i did . i wonder at times if i did hav that special moment wit u would things b how they r now ? I dont wat i did to make u hate me so much ?

Today was an ok day i think cuz i didnt hang wit the old crew cuz they been cut but i did hang wit my sis from another ms. Lol

Rihanna -G4L (lovin this song)

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The Beginning And The End !!!

2ma is a new day without u , its the beginning wit really sayin your just a friend , its also only the beginning wit my heart break that will never go away ,Its the end of us

a good thing

They say good things come to those who wait , so i waited and a good thing went right past me .

BLINK BY MALCOLM GALDWELL

"THE POWER OF THINKIN WITHOUT THINKIN"

My goal is to read a chapter a night , and get some good advice and a  new outlook on life and the way i think ! 

EMO QUOTES&POEMS I LOVE

• I cry for the time that you were almost mine,  I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you
• Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels
• I don't know If I can stand,To see you love another girl,You know that you broke my heart ,You know that your my world,But while your standing by my side,I'll believe your lies forever
• It’s funny how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces.
• I never stopped loving you.I just stopped letting it show.

that text message killed me

ME : GOOD NITE  AND ROCKSTAR DREAMS IF YOU NEED ME HIT MY LINE UP
YOU: YOU DONT NEED TO TELL ME GOOD NITE
ME: Y
YOU: CUZ I HAV A GIRLFRIEND TO TELL ME THAT
ME: UMMMM O WOW ..... WELL BESTFREINDS TELL EACH OTHER GOOD NITE TO , BUT IF U WANT ME TO STOP I WILL
YOU: OK THANKS =)
ME: IF U DONT MINE ME ASKIN , Y DID U PICK HER INSTEAD OF ME ?
YOU: CUZ SHE THE TYPE OF GIRL I NEED IN MY LIFE
ME: AND I WASNT ?
YOU: YEA U CAN SAY THAT
ME : R  WE STILL BESTFRIENDS ?
YOU: YEA
ME: UMMM OK IAM STILL HERE FOR YA IAM SHOCKED AND HURT  BUT YOU STILL MY BESTIE AND I STILL LOVE YA NO MATTER WAT
YOU: OK THANKS
ME : TEARS TO MY PILLOW , SITTING BACK WONDERIN Y AND WAT HAPPEN TO US , TEXTIN MY SIS TELLIN HER ABOUT THE PAIN IN MY HEART .

MY SIS / MY BESTIE / MY HEART

This a real B.F.F : Consuella Orlandra Reid aka Con~Con ,Su~Su , Connie, Blonde Chick , Ms.D.C, The Realist, Mrs.Maddox >>yea i kno thats alot  << theres more lol .  I meant Connie at cheerleading tryouts and ever since then when been close , she is truly my bestfriend ,she hasnt done me wrong in any kind of way ! she always has my back and I always hav hers , she keeps it real 1000% and more . we hav  the same views on alot of things lol !! She there for my ups  and downs and iam there for hers !! i can talk to her about anything and she always gives me good advice !!! .everytime were together were havin a blast ! I LOVE HER TO DEATH !!

ME AND CONNIE 

lol 

CIARA DUECES (REMIX) !!!!

LADIES DUECES TO HIM !!!!!

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ITS JUST BETTER TO PRETEND

I pretend every things ok when really its not so  i just say "all smiles" thinkin about us never bein together kills me , its like u took my life away when u went away !! so its just better to pretend that it didnt happen , did u kno that i cry everyday ? i fell so hard smh , i wake up hoping  this is a dream buts its not , i wish i could go back in time  and redo everything that happen , but its better to pretend ! but i wonder how long can i pretend things r ok , i will never kno , sometimes iam ok then iam  not thats when i pretend iam ok i guess  i want closer but then i dont want it  cuz thats means its the end of me and u .. so until then "ALL SMILES"

Gemini Twinz !!! MUSIC VIDEO !!! "DORM ROOM" !!!!!!

ITS HERE!!!!!!!!! GTWINZ !!!! MUSIC VIDEO "DORM ROOM"
 I REALLY LOVE THIS VIDEO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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CAN I HAV THE KEY TO MY HEART BACK !!

I dont kno how to explain it but i will try : Dear T.Argue (pt 1)
I knew something was up wit u , cuz  u seem different txts and the calls stop !! the "i love u to" became "yep love u to" u seems really distance to me , things started off ok we were friends at first became best friends wit love then i fell deeply in love wit u ., everyday i gang more feelings for u , not just any type of feelings real deep feelings ,I REALLY FELL IN LOVE WIT  YOU !!! i told u i would love u no matter wat , and u said the same, i would call u hubby and u would call me wifey , things were good before people started puttin all these things inside your head about that wasnt true which made u change your heart about me , i gave u the key to my heart  because u  was the only one i wanted to have it , and i wanted yours , the more people told u shit the more u became distance , i feel really hurt ,mad  and ,sad knowin that i really was goin to be yours on that day but SOMEBODY FUCKED IT UP !!! ON FALSE FACTS !!!  that really fucked me over !! ever since then things been rocky !! i just want the key to my heart back so i can burn it and buried the ashes cuz i will never b the same !!

Ugh !!!!
*EMO*

Today was inevent fully day

SAMMIE - SLOW ( LOVIN THIS SONG)

need to stop caring !

i need to stop caring about the things u do and the people u hang wit , i need to stop worrying about wat your doin or who your talkin to ! cuz it just makes me sad and mad altogether and i cant take it  so , i guess its time for a new challenge !! this time  iam really goin to try an do !! i want u to come to me , for now on and i want u to text and call me lol ! done chasin !! so the fresh start will begin at 12:00am mon lol

A business mind

I need to start thinkin wit  a business mind for now on ! and start doin some more networking and promoting , iam takin a business law  and business 101 class. so i need to get my head back in the game !!!  a business mind focuses on gettin that money !! and nonething else so thats wat iam about to do , i cant depend on anybody else but me !

FOR NOW ON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So i been puttin all and i do mean ALL my focusin on this guy and things hav been goin crazy , wit my emotions !  so i decide to put my focus in this blog , iam goin to start bloggin everyday , and focus on bein Vice President of BSU(black student union)! sooooo for now on iam goin to blog everyday and promote my blog more and its time for upgrade !!